WARNING: first part of this blog is mega depressoI am so close to breaking down. In the past two weeks i've had my heart trampled on three times. It's honestly too much.
Firstly i had a boy i used to love flirt with me and lead me on only to drop me cold and honestly does not care one iota about me.
I then fell for a guy, who fell for me, who has a girlfriend.
Then i had a "thing" with a childhood sweetheart, who has a girlfriend.
My heart is so close to breaking. and on top of that I'm failing one of my subjects at school and the stress of finishing is getting to me and the stress of leaving and the stress of uni auditions and i am crumbling.
I don't know who to go to. I honestly don't know who cares. And i feel like such a winger. But i just feel like my insides are made of lead. I wish i was less stubborn and would cry out for help. Or better yet i wish my mum listened, i mean actually listened.
To top it off i just had a screaming fight with my brother and i feel like shattering a mirror over my head.
So thats why I'm putting all this in my blog. Because i have no idea what to do.
Let's move on.
Over the holidays i did lots of theatre. One thing was a camp called TRW. It was a lot of fun. I met some incredible people who i know i'll be friends with for a long time.
And then i did a show called Forbidden Broadway which was so good. I had so much fun performing and learning. I miss all my CSP friends a lot when I'm at school. Which i think might be another reason I'm so sad at the moment.
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