there goes my diet for a day.

O.K. so if you know me then you know that i lovelovelove cooking. It's my hobby. And i often *always* improvise my recipes. So, today i cooked two different things and i've decided to give all you readers a few of my recipes.

First off i made choc chip cookies. Now i like my cookies chewy and i've struggled to find a choc chip recipe to Satify my chewing needs. so i invented one.

Ingredients:
1/2 cup of brown sugar
1/2 cup of white sugar
3 tbsp of margarine
1 egg
teaspoon of vanilla essence
1 1/4 cup of plain flour
LOTS of choc chips

Step 1: mix two types of sugar and margarine with an electric beater.
Step 2: Add egg and vanilla
Step 3: Add flour and choc chips
Step 4: Put on a tray and cook at 160C for like idk 20 mins? just keep an eye on them

HOW EASY IS THAT?! That's them below cooking away in the oven. :D


and these are special care cookies. they're going to a friend of mine who's going through a rough patch. so I'm making her nice things

AND tomorrow is world teachers day. i think it's pretty lame but i have a feeling my school will be getting into it so i decided to make toffee apples. it was very difficult to make these.

ok so you'll need
apples
sticks
3 cups of water
2 cups of white sugar
and a tbsp of white vinegar

step 1: you start off by mixing the sugar and water and vinegar in a saucepan on high for like ages (25mins) then you dunk apples in it. sounds easy yes? NO. It was noooot easy. But here are some pictures i tooke of the process on my new WATERPROOF HOT PINK camera XD.

Deep breathing.

WARNING: first part of this blog is mega depresso

I am so close to breaking down. In the past two weeks i've had my heart trampled on three times. It's honestly too much.

Firstly i had a boy i used to love flirt with me and lead me on only to drop me cold and honestly does not care one iota about me.

I then fell for a guy, who fell for me, who has a girlfriend. 

Then i had a "thing" with a childhood sweetheart, who has a girlfriend.

My heart is so close to breaking. and on top of that I'm failing one of my subjects at school and the stress of finishing is getting to me and the stress of leaving and the stress of uni auditions and i am crumbling. 

I don't know who to go to. I honestly don't know who cares. And i feel like such a winger. But i just feel like my insides are made of lead. I wish i was less stubborn and would cry out for help. Or better yet i wish my mum listened, i mean actually listened. 

To top it off i just had a screaming fight with my brother and i feel like shattering a mirror over my head.

So thats why I'm putting all this in my blog. Because i have no idea what to do.

Let's move on.

Over the holidays i did lots of theatre. One thing was a camp called TRW. It was a lot of fun. I met some incredible people who i know i'll be friends with for a long time.

And then i did a show called Forbidden Broadway which was so good. I had so much fun performing and learning. I miss all my CSP friends a lot when I'm at school. Which i think might be another reason I'm so sad at the moment.