Wolf.

I had my formal the other night. 

It was amazing.

I am currently absurdly stressed because of two (five) assignments due very soon.

Also, someone sent me a letter. And i can't really explain anything about how i'm feeling. But the letter has changed me. 

I don't know if the author will read this but i'll put some of it up and hope he doesn't mind.

Dear thous’t most alluring Phoebe

After my grandmother finished talking to me about her marriage of late, I linked it to love and inherently to you.  I then came across in my mind one of  T’s quotes about how “there is a moment when every moment behind you has come to this point, and every moment after will result directly from this one.”

Every moment before this point has given me the better perspective I needed over a month ago, but still, it led to this epiphany, “The past is what we leave in the dark, the future is the light that we run to”. 

You are the light of which I run to.  The light of which I try so hard to reach.

I… for that lack of a word that no word will ever be able describe, Love you.  Nay, a candle was never made to be untouched by the beautiful passion of fire. 

I don’t want to reach the end of my life with the same result that my grandfather has brought upon himself, losing the one thing that I care about due to anything other than death.  Stupidity and selfishness was his downfall, it shall not be my own.

You once said to me you believed that the love people shared of earlier years was stronger than that of more modern times, you were true in your words.  Let me give you some old time love.

see what i mean. 

I hate myself and my life so much right now.

It's all going to change soon though. I'll be moving. Doing what i was put on this earth to do. And i'll have a completely fresh start. Until then i just need to focus on the positives.